~ 7/20/2005 10:15:00 PM ~
Wednesday, July 20, 2005
[SerieS of UnforTunate EveNts]
went to [sc] after sch... dad sorta like screwed up the date.. but he tot is the nurse nv record.. so we got the appointment fast...
i noe i'll nv hear gd news from tt place.. but... letting the truth dawn upon me makes me juz wanna cry... im juz freakin unlucky... i can nv be myself now..
brushing those away.. went back to sch for badminton.. i had troubled dad too much today.. forgetting to bring racket and wearing wrong pair of shoes.. ..
in the car.. i folded my gi.. all ready for today's passing out session.. den thinking of how to escape from badminton trg.. i realised i forgot to bring my racket!
so i msged dad to bring it out..
in the afternoon.. i realised i wore the wrong pair of shoes!!! so had to call dad to go home take bad shoes for me.. he came to sch to pick me up.. bot pizza for lunch.. den sent me to [sc].. after tt send me back sch again...
ran 4 rounds round the track.. i was feeling happy den.. i was happy most ppl turned up for trg today... and we were running together as a team.. i felt hopeful.. and anticipated trg from the new teacher - ms lim...
unfortunately.. freakin' shitty body din co-operate... kena feng mo... and i had to call dad to take me away...
i missed badminton.. and i missed judo... but today was a day which i had aniticipated for for very long already.. and i juz couldnt stay... y y y.. of all ppl.. y muz it be me?!?! ok.. even if so.. of all times.. y is it today!!!
i hate my life.. i hate myself.. i hate those disgusting things tt will pester me for eternalty.. am i juz gonna live with it?? cant anything be done???
today had been judo's passing out.. heard it was fun...
even if it wasnt gonna be fun.. i still would wanna be there for this special ceremony..
how often do we get to participate in passing out ceremonies..?? i've nv had one in my whole life in badminton... thus i really wanted to be able to attend one in judo.. i wouldnt have the luxury of next yrs.. =(
argh... and fj had to remind me the bet would not be valid cuz i din go... damn it.. i juz lost my chance of getting a name keychain?? i din even put it on my wishlist cuz i knew i confirm win la..
hmm.. actually i also dunno y fj wan to bet such a silly bet.. maybe u juz wanna make the name keychain for me rite??haha.. den y did u let me noe tt the bet's no more valid!!! haiz..
it's juz not fair how some unrelated things can get u down and destroy everything u once had.. or even the future tt once looked oh-so-bright...
